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Friends from the game. เพื่อนที่ได้จากในเกม (ไม่ได้นินทานะ แค่เล่าให้ฟัง ฮ่า ๆ ๆ)
Again, this year the Sadistic Statistic Moogle (or according to Cornie, the GoogleMoogle) is back!
He’s the Moogle that keeps track of everyone’s statistics, the data such as Chat Frequency, NPC conversations, numbers of your battles, battles won, parties or alliances joined, as well as how many enemies you have defeated (which I believe only counting the finishing blows.)
So here’s mine! As of 14 May 2010.
Chat Frequency: 509588
NPC Conversation: 65528
Parties joined: 2966
Alliances joined: 443
Battles fought: 72016
Enemies defeated: 41390
GM calls made: 9
Let’s compare it to last year, May 2009.
So, within 1 year time, here’s the change.
Chat Frequency: +200324
NPC Conversation: +21542
Parties joined: +1018
Alliances joined: +294
Battles fought: +16492
Enemies defeated: +7296
GM calls made: +5
Comparing to people whom I’ve talked to, for example, Cornie and Aurrek, I have died very few times! Prove me the master of escaping!! Woot!
Ah, and my total playtime from /playlog command reads:
375 days and 6 hours, approximated.
By the way, Corn’s total stats (as of 12th May 2010) are;
Chat Frequency: 637357 (There, more than me, phew! Haha!)
NPC Conversation: 43081 (A lot! But mine’s still more, me lonely? Had to befriend NPCs!)
Parties joined: 2353 (A bit less then me? I don’t expect me to win like this O_o)
Alliances joined: 484 (We’re close!)
Battles fought: 53299 (Impossible >.> Corn, you are the slaughterhouse beast, why I fought more than you!?)
Deaths: 1398 (500+ more than me, wheeee!!)
Enemies defeated: 32873 (Right, because you usually are busy tanking for me when I kick stuff)
GM calls made: 7 (Way to go, hun)
And Aurrek’s (12th May 2010):
Chat Frequency: 299591 (Hmmm how curious, not as high as I would expect)
NPC Conversation: 74498 (Gosh, you love those NPCs so much, Aurrek)
Parties joined: 2615 (Our stats is kind of close in this department)
Alliances joined: 548 (A bit more than me and Corn, you’re the big event guy, yeah!)
Battles fought: 94468 (Look whose number went skyrocket O_o OMG are you kidding me!?)
Deaths: 41xx (I zoned, but still this is A LOT!!! You master of death!)
Enemies defeated: 33202 (Close to Corn’s, a bit more)
GM calls made: Didn’t mention.
And Arkades’ (15th May 2010)
Chat Frequency: 297563 (Average, is it?)
NPC Conversation: 74917 (You talked to NPCs even more than Aurrek did….wow)
Parties joined: 2949 (Almost draw with me on this one)
Alliances joined: 547 (Almost match Aurrek’s lol)
Battles fought: 117893 (Whoa, dude, we’re talking about 100k battles? OMG You maniac!)
Deaths: 2668 (Are you serious? Dying 2600 times out of 2900 parties joined? That’s a true PLD)
Enemies defeated: 45348 (Ark is a killer!)
GM calls made: Didn’t mention
I’m looking for more people to compare stats with. :3
Tags: Adventure Appreciation
, Moogle Event
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Hmmmm! Today I went to Campaign Battle with Aurrek and he happened to mention a friend whose name was mighty familiar to me. After a few second of fast-rewinding my memory, I recalled him being one of those who were in alliance when I did my Divine Might battle.
So, off I go, browsing my old screenshot folders. And yes, I found them, dating back to 21 February 2010. You can read in detail >>> here <<< because I went back and wrote about it using the date when it happened.
Anyway, looking closely in the pictures, I found this funny trivial fact…
In this screenshot which I took immediately when we beat the battle,
The bottom left corner of the chatlog has it that….
>.> Uhh Aurrek, scene stealer! LOL
Then we were queuing up for D2 service. And as people were leaving, somehow Aurrek and Cornelious glared at each other. I don’t know what they were doing, but probably some kind of mind game, or a face-off to show who’s the macho man and the man of the match! Funny pic, and I was like staring at them hahaha!
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Aromatherapy? Hydrotherapy? They’re all so last year! What’s hot in this season is Campaigntherapy!!!
Feel sad? Go Campaign Battle!
Feel antsy? Go Campaign Battle!
Feel down? Go Campaign Battle!
Feel bored? Go Campaign Battle!
Feel stressful? Go Campaign Battle!
Feel angry for no reason? Go Campaign Battle!
Feel like kicking some asses? Go Campaign Battle!
Feel like getting your ass kicked? Go Campaign Battle!
Feel like scratching someone’s eyes out? Go Campaign Battle!
In dire need of Merit Points but don’t want to setup a Merit party? Go Campaign Battle!
Eyes burning with envy on the Allied Ring that your friends flaunted in your face? Go Campaign Battle!
Yes, Campaign Battle is the cure for all!
Just leave everything behind and go crazy with your killing spree. Club those Yagudo on the head, kick those Orcs in the nuts, or stab those Quadavs in the throat! Unleash your frustration or anger on the beastmen, and then you would feel better. Kill something! Whack some monster! Crack your whip! Go RAWR and attack everything in your sight!
Ahhhhhh! At least that’s how I roll. If I really don’t know how else to make me feel better, I would either wander around aimlessly alone or find something to kill. Submerge myself in some intense activity to reduce my stress.
Just yesterday I logged on while feeling crappy and grouchy, so I set my comment to forewarn friends or strangers of my unstable mental, and ventured out to the Campaign Battle fields. After a while, however, I became restless and antsy., and also a bit lonely, I would guess. Then I happened to see that Aurrek was around! Of course who else would be the better victim than such a good ol’ friend?
No, I didn’t kick him in the nuts or scratch his eyes out! I meant victim in being a picked company for me. So yeah we teamed up and hung around. It’s hard to explain but Aurrek is now one of a few people I would seek and want to hang near when I’m not feeling well. His presence kind of makes me feel calm and relaxed. So, instead of avoiding him when I’m extremely moody like I would avoid other friends, just so I have some private space to calm down, I stick with him. The other few people would be Arkades, whose company always makes me feel active and energetic. So when I feel lifelessly bored or lack of motive, I seek Ark as well. Cornelious is also the very example of my selected company. He makes me feel happy and lively, and also very comfortable. Oh wow, now it starts to sound more like Gentlementherapy instead. LOL!
Anyway, back to Aurrek’s story. So we partied and battled in Campaign for a (long) while. I actually ran into him during Campaign several times in this past week. But yesterday was especially memorable because we sat down and had a very long talk too, not just killing random monsters, although it started out as normally as other encounters – by having us killing beastmen that invaded.
We hopped to various place, fighting either Yagudo or Orcs. But as far as I remember, we didn’t go to any of the Quadav’s attack areas. Then, at East Ronfaure (S), while waiting for the battle to start, Aurrek stared at the female (I didn’t notice at first!) Elvaan NPC, drooling over her Aegis. I told him this shield looks very creepy, because it has a face on it. LOL.
Then after finishing several Campaign Battles, we just stopped and sat down and talked. We talked about a lot of stuff, his good friends, his LS, his goal of obtaining Aegis. We also talked about Thai language, about Aphmau and a music VDO on YouTube (Very lovely <3 !!!) , about my website (this blog), about Cornelious (oops, lol sowwy Cornie!), and about personally sad moments. He also gave some useful advice on the subject of what’s troubling me at the moment. I really appreciate it. Then after a very long conversation, we started moving again and wandered around quite aimlessly.
We explored Sauromugue Champaign (S), trying to find a way to get to the oceanic cliff. However, the path was blocked by a long wall. :\ Aurrek said Awww we can’t get to the water. Meh! Bummer. Anyway, we walked around and found a Sprite. Aurrek made a comment saying he looks almost like this Sprite in real life XD So I took a screenshot of him and the faerie. Sky was blue and pretty too! Then we went to Meriphatuad Mountains (S) and kindof repeated the same process of roaming.
“Aurrek, what’s that black smoke?”
“Over there, in the sky.” *point*
“Hmmmm. Let’s investigate.”
Too bad we ran into a dead end and couldn’t get to the place where that smoke was originated.
Oh, and while we were in the Champaign, Aurrek crept up on some Yagudos at their tower and slain them. We moved from tower to tower. Was fun! Especially when they use Feathered Furore or something and stripped Aurrek’s pants off his body! LOL!
Yeah, it was a good day. Made me feel better too. Was great to hang out with him. Thank you Aurrek! Let’s go kill some beastmen together again soon!
Oh and just for reference, I’ve written another page about the first time I met Aurrek, back in 2008, >> here <<.
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When I woke up at noon, I was surprised to see Cornelious in the game still. He said he wasn’t sleepy yet, so we tried to think of some adventures to do. Bleh….it was hard to be creative in that department because I usually hang out by myself or just tag along with a group of friends. Thinking of something to do as a duo party has always been difficult for me even since I was playing with my boyfriend.
Anyway, I asked him if he’d like to go to Altepa Gate. He said yes, and we headed there. Long story short; we went in and found Lusheeta in there, sitting near the NMs platform. Since I didn’t want to be rude, and I recognized she’s one of Maxpeter’s best friends, I asked if she was hunting the NM. She said NM & EXP Ring (through auto-translation.) Therefore, we decided to leave and bid her a farewell. Once outside I was once again overheating my brain to think up a place to go. It was still difficult, damn!
So….while I was feeling frustrated with myself’s lack of creativity, Corny said he would pick a random letter from English alphabet and then go anywhere that starts with that letter. So I closed my eyes and poked a button on my keyboard, then tried to hit enter button, so we got “m.” in the chat log.
I couldn’t think of any place at the moment so Cornelious named a few, one of them was Merophatuad Mountains. So, we Teleport-Mea. Then when I thought about Meriph. the place Castle Oztroja popped up. So, I brought him there. We killed some Yags in NM room until each of them popped. No drop though. Then we left, and Corny said he wasn’t going to bed yet and that he would stay for a short time.
Therefore, off we go, to the Parradamo Tor, my favourite place to go and contemplate upon my lonesome self. Here are selected pics from the picnic. And Corny, if you want any of the pics in original size, just let me know, k? The original screenshots are 1600 pixels in my computer. These are resized (clickable.)
On the way to it, at nighttime Parradamo Tor looked like an enormous pile of cake in the distance. I love this deep blue colour of sky, it has slightly lighter shade near the horizon.
Waiting for the emission to die down so we can pass, I took an opportunity to take a screenshot.
When we arrived up top, it was almost dawn and the moon was setting on one side.
We sat down to wait for the sunrise. This was also the place I brought my fellow adventuring buddy to sit and take some pics.
I’ve always thought that the colour of sky in FFXI is wonderful. Nice graphic. And the colours could change so much it’s amazing. Look how it’s changing from night to day. That pinkish colour was pretty.
The deep blue sky lightened up. In the clouds, the reflection of golden ray from the rising sun shone. I couldn’t resist the urge to dance!
The light-coloured sun showed up. I danced a lively jig. Good morning Vana’diel!
Cornelious joined in, so there were 2 crackheads oops! sickos oops, no! weirdos dancing in the morning sun, atop the mountain. Hahahaha! Oh, and before we left Bastok, I told him we must bring screenshot gears, so he brought those…. At first I only wore my puzzle-face maker, Trainee Axe, but then I ran back into my Mog House to get the twin clubs from Valentione’s event.
After a few attempts, we managed to screenshot this.
Then I grabbed his bum and he got freaked and ran away it was also nearing dawn on Cornelious’ timezone, so he had to leave, heading to bed.
Good night, Corny! Sorry I kept you up, hope it wasn’t too much a torture.
After that, I tele-ed out myself. Now see, the sky has no cloud, and it’s clear blue! Woot!
However, I like it more when the sky has various cloud formations. It looks more interesting that way.
I think I have a ton of screenshots from Parradamo Tor. I’ll upload them later.
, FFXI Scenery
, Parradamo Tor
, Vana'diel sky
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So…. after leaving the Boyahda Tree and parted with Elwyn and Kujimaro, I dragged my sleepy head to King Ranperre’s Tomb along with Cornelious for this Treant NM. Actually I’ve seen this NM with Maxpeter a few times already. But I was never there soon enough to see the Saplings. So, when I heard from Cornelious that they will kill the Saplings soon, I got interested.
We arrived in the Ronfaure and Corny asked me to invite his friends, and they told him they got 2 or 3 sub DNC so there will be 3 Erase available at a time. Corny said, well, we have Esuna. So they started yelling he never told them he had a White Mage friend! lol! No! I’m not his WHM friend! I’m his MNK friend!!!
(Corny would object to my claim for sure, because whenever I met him in Sky, I was always White Mage, lol!!)
Anyway, when I arrived they were already killing some Saplings. After killing 3 or 4 (as far as I saw) the big tree popped!
Well, this was a bad screenshot, because Corn and friends were still out there to the far left after finishing the last Sapling. =_=
Then we fought, it was a longer fight than I thought. And the NM ran around a lot because it has hate resetting move. The buffs removing move was also annoying. I was frustrated, because I’ve always hated mobs that remove buffs. Seiryu, for example.
The fight went well, though not very smoothly. There was no fatal injuries, no NM stomping on mages (well it kinda poked and slapped Abigor around a bit, but no stomping.) And also….no drop lol! However, that was fun. Thanks for letting me in guys! Finally got that romantic & sweet title again, Mon Cherry. ^^ Hehehe.
Oh, wait, after the fight, Cornelious was angry that the tree didn’t drop what he wanted, oops, wanted to go home the quickest way, so he blew himself up.
But hey, I was resting right there! Of course the worm aggroed me and Corny said oops, I forgot. LOL Yeah, people always forgot. I had at least 3 Ninjas doing the same thing to me before.
It’s ok though I have my lovely Repose. I really liked this spell since when it was newly added. It is truly a White Mage’s lifesaver. Through linkging, adding in party, as well as Dynamis runs, I’ve learned to master the quick-cast of Repose. Also, the other people were there looking out for me too. They got ready and engaged so quickly But when they saw it’s slept, they didn’t run in.
Abigor casted a teleport spell and we were out at a Telepoint Crag, leaving the only corpse behind Sorry Corny, dead body isn’t allowed in the taxi.
So it was time for me to log out and crawl into my bed. Good night! Sleep tight!
Tags: Cemetery Cherry
, King Ranperre's Tomb
, Mon Cherry
, Notorious Monster
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Ahhhh to restrain myself from taking an afternoon nap… I must write someting. Recently I’ve been super lazy, taking a nap in every opportunity, it’s becoming a bad habit. +_+
OK, well, yesterday I browsed old screenshot folders and found some pics of Raysin and Locust. (There are more, but I can’t find them yet, GRRR!!!)
I, along with some friends including Sando my boyfriend, met Raysin and Locust in an EXP party in Kazham. That was year 2004. We were trying to get to level 30 to activate advanced jobs’ quest. I can’t recall whom we met first, Ray or Loc, but they were both Red Mage. The party was great, probably the best party we ever had in 20’ish. How good it was? Well, the exp was so fast and people were so nice and friendly that everyone refused to let party disband. I think we ended up partying for over 10 hours. I can’t remember the exact duraion, but my night became morning when we finally disbanded, that’s what I could remember.
I think we had 9 people altogether, switching members in and out when someone had to leave shortly, like for a meal, etc. It was also the longest party I’ve been in, due to our tag-teaming strategy. LOL! We were crazy, really. But thet party had imprinted a positive image of Yuhtunga into me. I would say I love the Jungles, all thanks to Raysin and Locust, and that entire party.
GRR! I’ve been trying to find the screenshots from that day, but couldn’t find it now. Maybe I’ll repost later.
Anyway, the oldest screenshots of Raysin and Locust that I already found date back to July 2004. We went to have some adventures in the haunted mines of Gusgen.
We fought the ghost NM and got owned big time! And of course Shinmai was the first person to die. Poor Taru!
Boy, I’ve been hating the siren of Gusgen ever since! It was really, really evil. And after dying, we had lied there for a long time, waiting for a rescue. Worms awarmed around our dead bodies, and the zombie dog trotted over us.
Afterwards, we found a person who agreed to come.
1 July 2004
This person is Japanese. We had a lot of trouble communicating. First off, it was very hard to tell him where we were. The <pos> wasn’t enough, you see. I had tried my best to use my pityful Japanese, telling him that we were near a pond…. With difficulty, he finally found us. But….but…. the NM either didn’t despawn or it had respawned, and aggroed on him when he tried to raise us!
While he was fighting for his own life, we couldn’t do anything but watch…. The person seemed to be a Red Mage, with my poor memory. He used the sleep-sit-then-fight strategy. We could clearly see that he was fighting with great difficulty. I really feel sorry to have brought him such trouble. I think we had watsed 1 hour of his mining time. I’m so sorry Aomax. And thank you very very very much for helping us.
Afterwards I ran into Raysin every once in a while. Sometimes we didn’t see each other but just chat in /tell. And of course they’re both on my Friend List since the first encounter in Yuhtunga. So, we pretty much kept in close contact.
25 August 2004
When I was leveling up my Cooking in Windurst, I ran into Raysin again. She complaint about the slowness in skill points gain, so I suggested her to try Selbina Butter recipe. It turned out to work great for her.
17 December 2004
Then, again, we ran into each other in Bastok. By the look of it, I was clearly fishing in the Markets. XD Now Raysin was a Samurai. I think we talked about either the Relic armor or the Relic weapon of Samurai, as well as on some of her other jobs. At that time the endgame world was beyond my understanding and all I knew was that those were very hard to obtain.
Well, we talked for quite a long time and I was happy to see her again. She’s pleasant to be with, to talk with, and to adventure with. Nowadays I miss her a lot.
23 December 2004
Then a few days later Locust was in Bastok too. We talked for a while in front of the Stables. He was funny as usual
Well, the merry time was short. Locust had to go abroad because he’s an army officer. Raysin left for WoW and stopped playing FFXI. Um, I can’t remember what happened first and when each of them happened, but yeah basically they left. I was lonely. At that time it was like everyone was quitting. Half of my Thai social linkshell was gone, due to work and/or study. And Ray&Loc were gone too. At some point my boyfriend also took a long break from Vana’diel. So I spent days and nights fishing, crafting, and traveling around pointlessly.
Then one day Raysin came back. We talked and she asked me to join her and her friend in an adventure!
9 January 2006
We went to the northlands.Of course I brought my Shinmai instead of Aleczan. White Mage has better chance in sneaking through enemies. Haha!
Notice it was quite late at night in myt timezone. But, RAWR! Shinmai wants to go adventure with Raysin!
9 January 2006
I can’t remember what we did that night. Really…all escaped from my memory for some reason. But from the screenshot we were in Fei’Yin.
Maybe we were collecting Cermet Headstones for ZM? I’m just guessing because I saw a screenshot where it looks like we were running towards a headstone in Fei’Yin, in the Cloister of Ice’s room.
9 January 2006
Then I aggroed 2 eyes…. lol! One of them casted Sleepga and so Raysin was asleep and Shinmai kissed snow, then Saralar had to solo 2 eyes lol!!!
Um….am I imagining it? This pic looks like Xarcabard more than Beaucedine. Ah, well, I remember that that night we also went to the front of Castle Zvahl because I clearly remember getting killed at the aurora cliff…. But I don’t know exactly when, maybe not in this round of trip.
Anyway, we went to Altep. Reason unknown, again.
9 January 2006
This is the only picture I got….So I really have no idea what we were doing.
The next screenshot, we’re back in Xarcabard. With Ellynx, whom I don’t recall. I’m sorry T.T Short memory.
9 January 2006
I got a level up, lol! Probably back from delevel.
That was all I got from that night.
Next adventure with Raysin was in Garlaige Citadel. We had lots of people that time. It was the coffer hunt.
26 February 2006
So many people, hehehe! Well, I think my Shinmai was level 39 or 40. Actually too low to be helpful in Garlaige coffer hunt. But, meh! Raysin said I could go and I was happy to hang out with her…so… wheeeee~~~!!
So, we were fighting Doom. I think maybe they pulled some Weapons in the area too. I aggroed many things and died 4 times, if I remember correctly. They said they’re sorry for the death. Ha! It was fun so I don’t care! I could delevel for 5 levels without complaining if it means I get to hang out with Raysin! And the oune who sould be saying sorry was me, for being such a burden to the group LOL!!!
Oh….and I just noticed that Sieka was there too! XD
Hahaha! I didn’t recall her when we met again in Dynamis.
18 March 2006
Later on, I went to see Raysin in Konschtat Highlands. She was wearing the OMGcute! White Mage Artifact. I think she wasn’t lv 60 yet so she couldn’t wear full AF. I remember her saying excitedly that she was waiting to wear full AF ^^
At that time she was taking care of her LS friend, Smokee. Hmmm I don’t remember why Shinmai was there too, but maybe I was delivering something for Raysin. Or maybe I just missed her and went all the way there just to see her. Raysin is that type of person, the type that I’m willing to move my lazy bum out from Bastok and hunt for her just to see and talk to her! Ah well, we can send /tell but I personally like to talk to people in the game while they’re physically visible. It’s more intimate, you see.
That’s it. The latest I heard from Raysin in FFXI.
Unfortunately nowadays we’re not keeping as close contact as in the past. But I’ll try harder. I like to send postcards to friends and I’m looking forward to sending more to Raysin and Locust. I’ve missed her a lot, honestly.
P.S. Thanks Saralar for obtaining her address for me, hehe. I’ve made a good use of it, but not enough just yet!
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Hmmm! I found his screenshots first, so here goes. (Yeah my screenshot folders are like 1.7GB in total, and they’re very untidy so it’s hard to dig down for older pics. So it’s just natural that the recent ones catch my eyes first….This pic was taken in Xarcabard just last week.)
Pic: We were gathering in Xarc, and I talked to him saying he was handsome in Dark Knight’s outfit (just because I like his appearance as DRK more than as PLD) and he happened to kneel down to rest, so I took this opportunity to take a screenshot. I would say Elvaan males have a cool pose when kneeling.
Leftster, the Dark Knight. Well, he played more than just that, but somehow for me I always feel he’s a Dark Knight. He doesn’t fit in the white armor of Paladin (at least by appearance, you’ll see below.) It might be his usual job as a Dark Knight, or his true nature, or even the way I view his character, that makes him have a dark, mysterious air around himself. You know, the kind of atmosphere that attracts my curiosity. For me he stands out among the crowd. If many people are joking in the LS at the same time, I would notice Leftster first. If many people are picking on Lusi, I would notice Leftster first, too.
Pic: In Dyna-Bastok, I can’t remember what I was doing because this screenshot was taken in 1st person view. I might be resting for mp or might be just walking pass. Well, Lusi just happened to be in the pic, I don’t think I intend to put him there! Because I know that I was focusing on Leftster. I personally think that he looks cooler in black armor than white one.
Comparing among the 4 Linkaga people I planned to write about, if Rof is the person I’d love to stay near and chat for all day, if Trust is the person I’d love to join and follow in any endgame activity available, and if Elwy is the person whose HP and MP my eyes always follow, Left is the person whom I want to secretly stalk and watch what he’s doing in the game. I want to know more about this guy! But wait, not by getting to know him better or by talking to each other, but by distant observation. Like, I want to peek at him, or secretly follow him around to see what he’s doing. It’s that kind of curiosity, not that I want to get close to him to find things out.
Pic: I was turning my camera around to find a good angle to take screenshot of the falling snow. Then I found this angle, with Leftster in it. Other people were around too, but the camera angle hid them.
Though I take much interest in Leftster, far beyond just Dyna LS mates, I don’t have a crush on him. It’s hard to explain but…. Hmmm…. Ah, it’s like when I was a regular user to Yahoo! Chatroom. There used to be a guy whose speech and action attracted me. I became so mush interested in him (but not in term of love affair) that I couldn’t help watching what he said or did. However, I didn’t talk to him often. It’s fun just to watch, or well, read. Ah, yes, I would say he’s fun to read.
Leftster is like that.
Oftentimes, I would find his talking or action entertaining even when I’m not involved in it. He’s the person who makes me grin! Almost like Raysin…. who made me grin everytime we met in the game, but with Raysin it’s direct contact. It’s the things she talked to me or did to me, like for example, she would do /em picks Shinmai up and puts her in her pocket for safekeeping. or /em picks Shinmai up, puts her in her pocket, and runs!
With Leftster, it’s what he talked or did to the others, or even by himself that makes me grin. I like it when he teases other people or jokes around.
Pic: At Windy gathering, Leftster changed into this swimsuit and many people went Eeeeeww! (especially guys lol!) But girls gathered around him for some reason haha! Oh, me? I have no special reason, I just have a bicep fetish so I can’t resist arms. And wheeeee! Character models in FFXI have me drooling over guys’ arms a lot!
However, recently at Xarcabard gathering, I had gotten ahead of myself and blurted out that Lusian and Leftster could ignite my fictional imagination. So maybe Lefty became a bit wary when I’m around (lol!) and didn’t respond much to my teasing (or it could be that he was busy taking down lots, etc.) I also confessed that I’m a yaoi fangirl, which might sound disgustingly scary for guys XD But no, I swear I don’t imagine things like that about Leftster.
Because, you know, though I go “OMG LOL!” or “O_o!” or “wheeeee!” when they interact, it has nothing to do with love-affair or sexual fantasy. It’s like when I see 2 guys in real life and they express friendship or fondness through talking or subtle body language, I couldn’t help grinning or even giggling to myself. It’s really fun to watch, and I often secretly wish for more! It’s actually just because I think they’re cute together, not because I fantasize things beyond that. Also, since I write fictions, trivial interactions like that are what I’m looking for. I could use such information here and there to add more detail or emotion to my story. It could be useful in any writing situation, not just for my favourite male-to-male relationship story.
That’s just it, the reason behind my stupid grin or yaoi girl’s sparkle in my eyes when I watch Leftster and others. It wasn’t the ‘kinky’ thing, I only think it’s cuteness. But….gahhhh! I think I was being crazy in Xarc that I wasn’t able to elaborate the actual concept…. And now Leftster (and some others) might become scared (or disgusted!?) already. T.T Damn me!
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