Hehhhhhhhh!!!!

Finally my Monk has her own Destroyers!

Whenever I mentioned that I don’t have Destroyers yet, people freak out and say “Impossible!” “This can’t be.” “This is just wrong!” “We have to get you a pair!” or “Let me help you get them!” Yeah it’s true. I’ve been playing my Monk for all this time without having the Destroyers. For endgame, I’ve been using Hades Sainti. Not that I’ve used my Monk in endgame events often though…. Most of the time I’m asked to attend with my White Mage.

Anyway, buying Hades at 560k from Auction House on Sep. 29, 2009, I stick to this Hand-to-Hand weapon and didn’t make any effort to obtain Destroyers. I really like the weapon, and it dealt good damage. Before I decided to buy it, I asked Maxpeter about the performance and how he likes it. I also said the +7 Enmity is ugly as I don’t want to draw hate from the tank. It was already hard enough to keep a low profile when I DD stuff, like Simurgh for example.  He said, well you’re pulling hate, so it shouldn’t matter.

Ugh…WTH, yeah seems true.

Then he said I can try Hades Sainti for a few days because people were still buying these from AH, so if I buy a pair and end up not liking them, I can hurry and sell them back and find other weapon. So heh, it wouldn’t hurt, I guess.

So, I went and buy Hades Sainti, then liked it, and decided to keep it. I love the damage, and I don’t have to try hard to boost my ACC. And I eventually forgot about Destroyers, thought Destroyers used to be one of my wanted piece since I hit MNK75. I would say it’s an excellent weapon for soloing, because you don’t have to try to maintain low enmity when you solo.

Anyway, recently, or I should say the past month, Arkades had been actively trying to earn me a pair of Destroyers. When he asked around in Gwynfor, everyone, like Stardragon and Sieka, for example, all exclaimed that they can’t allow me to not have the Destroyers. XD So they said they would help with the battle if we could find a good time. And then, eventually on 27th of May 2010, Friday’s night, enough people showed up and was interested in doing Copycat BCNM. So we gathered and headed to Palborough Mines.

We got 7 people in the end, because Dragonkng popped into the LS after we started walking there, and Izia popped later after we started fighting a few rounds.

Being very late, we didn’t have enough time to do Izia’s Orb, so he was asked to sit out and lot a pair of Destroyers if they drop.

Arkades organized the run and looked up strategy. So basically people will get charmed by the Eye one by one, like every 30 seconds, and it starts from Orb owner, then down the Party list. It was damn fun and damn scary on the first battle! I thought we were going to lose because it really looked bad towards the end. But we won! First Orb was Ark’s because he volunteered to be first orb as a guinea pig. Was glad we won, although scarily LOL, but we got no Destroyers.

Second Orb we did it more smoothly, because everyone now had the idea of what would happen and how to react.

In the battle, when I’m charmed I would draw my weapon and try to bash Ark on the head, LOL. He’s been saying that I hit harder than Urvoc, THF. Haha! I think he just resists piercing DMG You be glad Urvoc didn’t use Sneak Attack or SATA on you when he was charmed! In the few first rounds, I and Star, and also Urvoc using his Sleep Bolt, would try to sleep everyone that gets charmed. But then there used to be times when the charmed person got uncharmed but still asleep, unable to help with the battle. So later on Ark asked that we let the mages (namely me and Elendyl BLM) whack at the DD or tank because we don’t deal much DMG anyway.

We got me a pair of Destroyers on Sieka’s orb, which I believe was 2nd orb.

<3 Sieka. Hehehehe!

I also got a gun (Coffinmaker) from one of the battle, becaus eno one else lotted on it. I think I will try to clean that gun soon too. Would be nice to have a high DMG gun for my THF.

Anyway, the best part of the day was……

Ladies and gentlemen!!!

When I whipped out my Kirin’s Pole to twhack Arkades, I got 0.2 points on Staff skill!!!!!!!

WIN!!!!!!!

Thank you everyone. Thank you for coming to help. Thank you for my Destroyers. Thank you Sieka for your lucky Orb. And last but not least, thank you Arkades for organizing the run.

^_^

Attending 2 funerals with in a few days has me ponder…about life.  They were boyfriend’s father, and a friend’s father, both had passed away earlier this week. We all live, and we all shall die one day, some day. It is nature. It is inevitable.

This one Buddhist monk at my BF’s father’s funeral preached with the words of the Buddha that we should not suffer in sadness of loss, for all we have are just temporary, and are not ours. One day we shall lose it all, even our own body, our own life. Do not claim things as yours, do not feel attached with things that you think are yours, for we all were born naked, when we die, we also go naked. No one can bring anything, except one’s self and soul, to the realm of death when the time for departure has come.

Sounds easy, but ever so complicated.

The theory could, however, sooth the mind of people who lose their beloved ones. If we think it is just natural that some one dies some day, then it’s not as sad.

We cannot bring back the dead, no matter how hard we cry.

We can’t avoid it, we can’t stop it.

Then what we can do?

I would say, do your best while you can, before you die, and before your beloved ones die. Do things that you should do, do things that you want to do, spend time with people you love as much as you can, so that when it’s time to say goodbye, you won’t feel deprived.

I want to be a person who does not regret when death arrives.

In order to accomplish that, I’ll have to live my life to the fullest, fulfill my dreams and wishes, accomplish my goals, and treat people around me as nice as I could. I want to live without fear for the future, without hesitation in the present, and without regret of the past.

In your life you may let many people down in several occasions, but you should remember to, or at least try to, never let yourself down. Should you realize you have let yourself down, behave and pick yourself up!

Easier be said than done, I know.

Regrets gives nothing to you if you let it burden your mind too much. Heck it might teach you one or two lessons to do or not to do something in some certain situation, yeah. In my country there’s a saying “Mistake is your teacher.” Yes of course, if you learn from your former mistakes. Let it teach you, but not obstruct you. Move on. Jump over it, walk over it, or crawl over it if you must. Get over it one way or another. You will become stronger as you get through more obstacles in life.

Talking about regrets, I myself currently have some regrets in life. Most of them were more the regret of not having done something than the regret of having done something.

They said that kind of regret is even worse.

If you do something and it turns out to be a bad decision, well, at least you’ve tried. No one is perfect. Failure is natural. It can happen.

If you don’t do something, and it turns out to be a bad decision, ugh that’s sad….you haven’t even tried anything to prevent it from happening.

Ouch.

If I could turn back time, I would like to go and correct 2 mistakes I’ve made. Or rather, to do what I’ve missed the chance to do. To take the actions I’ve always regret for not taking. And to at least try better in the situations, just so I wouldn’t have bashed myself as hard as I have before.

One example….

No, I’d rather not talk about this.

Let it be known just that one of my best friends, a pen friend, had died. I didn’t have a chance to bid her a farewell because I lost contact with her for about a year. I didn’t get to go to her funeral because I found out about her death a few months after. It took me one year to just get over the sadness of losing her, and 2 years total to stop bashing myself.

Why didn’t I do this? Why didn’t I consider that? Why haven’t I tried this? Why haven’t I got in touch with her more often? How could I be so self-obsessed and forget about her? Why did she have to die? How did she feel before she die? Could she remember about me near the end of her life? What would she think about me at that time? How lonely was she when I didn’t get in touch? Why did she leave me like this? How much pain had she endured in her mind?

There were sleepless nights, several sleepless nights when I buried myself in tears, thinking of nothing but her and these insane questions. It was endless, because there was no one to answer. And I, do not know the answer. Cannot find the answers to what I kept asking myself over and over again.

It’s been a hard time for me. Luckily I got passed it eventually. What was done was done. What wasn’t done cannot be done now. It’s over. It’s painful, but it’s over.

I cannot go back to correct the past. What I can do it do my best in the present, to guarantee a better future.

I learnt to not lose contact with my beloved ones.

I learnt to not procrastinate in getting in touch with my friends.

If I think of them, phone them, send them postcards, poke them, nudge them, nag them, bug them.

You know people can’t live forever, either you or your friends will die someday. Whoever die first, what counts isn’t how sad you are when deaths do your part, but how happy you were when you’re all still alive and are together.

I was sad. I was so damn sad. But what would she think if I keep crying? Of course she would be very sad to know. She might even regret that we got to know each other, because she brought great pain to me when she died. NO!!! I would never allow that thought to happen. No matter how sad I am now, I do treasure the time when we used to be friends. It was happy time. We had lots of fun together. I’m glad I made friend with her. It’s far, far better than not getting to know her at all. I would rather suffer this pain and sadness after, than to have never met her at all.

I am happy to know her.

I am proud to be her friend.

These thoughts helped me greatly in picking myself up and ending my self-pity period. Yeah I’m sad, I cry, I lost her. So what? What we had and what we did together were great. My friendship with her was one of the best ones in my life. We were happy to be friends. We got along so well. We had good time together. We did a lot of stuff together. We were great friends.

That, in itself, is sufficient, don’t you think?

Nowadays when I think of her, I no longer cry, but I smile and giggle. It was a very happy memory. And in my opinion, she would surely want to be remembered as a happy memory than a sad one. Of course who would want their friend to suffer because of them? I, for one, would cry if I find out I make my friend cry. So, I decided to cry no more about her.

Cherish your memory of friendship, and it shall never die. Persons pass away, but the love lives forever.

This also includes everyone around you, not just friends. Those you love, family, pets, whoever. If you love them, treat them well, stay close to them, spend as much time together as you could, so that in the end, you won’t regret or feel insufficient of love.

Peace & Love.

Recently I’ve completed my Mannequin quest in Mhaura!

It took me very long, so long time to gather all the Mannequin parts. I remember drooling over the Mannequin when the quest was first introduced, but ever since my Garrison attempt failed miserably, with the whole alliance wiped, I thought I wouldn’t want to go through all the troubles to put together my first Mannequin.

Later, I found out that some easy soloable BCNMs drop the parts, so I tried, but died (on my Shinmai SMN) and had to reconsider my plan again XD

Then hmmmm….a few years passed. Sometimes I saw very cheap Mannequin parts, like Head, or Legs, and bought them, hoping to eventually get all the parts. I shopped in Rolanberry markets every once in a while (like once a month? LOL) And recently after visiting many friends’ Mog House and seeing their Mannequins, I started to REALLY want to have a Mannequin of my own again!

So, yeah, more shopping.

I even attempted to do some trio BCNM with Arkades and Cornelious and hope for the drop, but we wiped XD Damn Endrain Crabs!!! RAWR!

A few months passed quickly….and just last week while walking from Rolanberry (yeah, ghetto Taru warp service) to Jeuno, I stopped by and found the last 2 pieces that used to be Bazaared very expensively! (I saw 600k, and 400k) This time it was like 200k or 250k a piece, so I grabbed those and WOOTGA!

I also found more hands and arms to complete the 2nd set, so I kinda forced Cornie to go do his Mannequin quest with me XD

So now we both have a Mannequin in the house

P.S. I think all Mannequins are Medium size. Because mine is a tad shorter than my Mithra.

On Saturday I suddenly decided to join Salvage group for the first time in my adventuring life. Actually it was just because I was curious, was bored, and wanted to hang out with Cornie. I know I wouldn’t have money (or effort) to put together any Salvage gear even if I could obtain the pieces. So it was just to see or try something new.

So, about 5 minutes before enter time, I went to Aht Urhgan Whitegate and obtained my first Salvage Permit ever!!!

When we entered, everyone was naked. It felt like a nudity club…. Was disturbing, but meh, can’t help it. I hate my naked MP, but this was even worse, because there was also a restriction which lower max MP even further!!!  (TwT) Gah!!!

But the fight wasn’t that difficult, because this team seem experienced. I, however, had to strain my focus more than usual because it’s new for me and I never read about Salvage before. Leader gave clear instruction and calls out lots on Cells (to remove restrictions or handicaps) very nicely, so I didn’t have much problem figuring out what to lot or to pass.

After a while, a piece of Usukane pants dropped.

I was tempted to lot!!! But I was new, and I didn’t know if I could assemble the piece for the real pants, and I already have Byakko Haidate so I hesitated and eventually didn’t lot.

Then, after more than an hour, we reached the boss room. It’s the hated Chariot of all time, ever since I started doing Nyzul Isle.

Buffing up, briefing plan, arranging parties. So only 2 SAMs will engage because they have Relic weapons. Others just stand afar and support.

This is not just any Chariot…. It spams Charm on melee people. The plan sounded cool at first, and the battle went nicely. But it turned out to be a big mess before long. Only Bind would work on charmed people, even though my Repose did stick. They said it wears off immediately so it’s useless. Bleh, damn it! Repose used to be my ultimate weapon against charmed comrade. Now it doesn’t work…. Blargh!

And the kiting…. My +8% movement speed wasn’t enough, so I would still get smashed on my head or slashed from the back. I have to learn to path better next time, because I kept running into one of the charmed people or the Chariot itself while running away.

After many deaths as well as attempts to recover, we finally wiped at 3 mins before time out.

The murderer?

One of our Samurais.

I can’t believe he hits me fore 695 on normal hit, non-critical.

(T.T)

The world is so cruel.

Next time I’ll run away faster, Shiki, I swear.

Well on Friday a friend I recently added to my friendlist asked if I want to do the Fairy Augment battle in Grauberg (S), of course I want my Club as well as my Hand-to-hand augmented. So as Arkades said he’s willing to help, I agreed to join that friend. We finished our FoV page in Cape Teriggan slowly, and then gathered in Aht Urhgan Whitegate while he kept finding more members. Stefy said she would come to help so now we have the healer!

Arriving in Grauberg (S) I lead him to the Quest NPC, far north if I remember correctly. He said it was his first time doing this battle. Arkades tried with his first weapon as well. I, however, couldn’t trade my Deower or something maul which is WHM Club, so I guessed I already traded something… And yes it was an Obeuron or something Knuckles. Please don’t mind my spelling today, because those Sidhe weapons all have ghey names, very hard to remember!

So yeah the fight went smoothly. We had mages sleep the Wivre and Arkades the Paladin kite the Quadav boss until we were done with his pets. I picked the Wivre one by one and they /assist me. Doing this made me realize I could never be the main assist person in Dynamis, because I suck at changing target manually, LOL.

This NM is easy if you have good PT setup and everyone knows what to do. There are a few important things to remember;
1. Keep shadows up at all time, thus PLD/NIN tank is recommended.
2. NM will use Invincible 3 times at 75%, 50%, and then 25% HP.
3. When he has Invincible effect on, he will use very strong headbutt attack.
4. The super headbutt can one-shot anyone.
5. Therefore, we have to stop fighting and run around, kiting him until Invincible wears off.

He also builds up more defense, both physical and magic, as his HP goes down. Near the end of the fight my attacks only do around 5-10 HP DMG on him! And I Asuran Fists for about 25 >.> Wow, he is really a big bastard.

During the fight, Arkades died once on the 2nd Invincible. So we kited him around while waiting for tank to unweak. Was FUN!!!!! Was big fun! I usually came to this battle on my White Mage, so it was the first time I ever kite this NM with Monk. He doesn’t run fast, so we can keep Utsusemi up with ease. I could also spam Boost and then Cho Blast on him without getting hit from behind.

Sorry, no Arkades’ dead pic. Was too busy running around the stone wall.

Anyway, we defeated him, with the last 10% of HP going down in agonizingly slow speed.

So yeah we won…. But I didn’t get a good Augment result on my Knuckles.

Oh yeah, so it’s spelt “Oberon’s Knuckles.”

DMG+ was too low, thouogh Delay-% was quite nice. The additional effect was just…crappy.

So I declined and decided to try again later.

My friend, on the oher hand, got a decent result on his Grreat Katana.

Seems like Mousee also got a good one, but I can’t remember and didn’t take a sneaky screenshot.

Congratulations!!

Ever feel so bored?

So bored that when you log in to the game, you don’t have even the slightest idea what to do. Umm.. I must say I’m not an easy person to bore. I kind of enjoy everything. Yeah, it’s a game, enjoy it. You’re supposed to be entertained by your game. Don’t let the boredom stop you.

But I also know that since the game has much changed, some people might not be able to keep up with the pace, or many friends might have quit, so there are less people to hang out with. That might bore you easily. Everyday life or real life situations/issues might also be  factors that give you the long face even when you’re logged in to Vana’diel. Then now, what’s the point if you feel so bored and cannot enjoy the game anymore? How sad!?

Now we wouldn’t want that to happen to us, would we?

But what if it already happened?

Find yourself some motive, I would say. Be active. The more you sulk and sigh, the more depressed you can become. Don’t just sit there wasting your breath! Get outside, have some adventures! Seek some fun! Be productive, get some achievement for yourself. Move forward. Or, if you can’t be productive, you can opt to the destructive method, but at least be creative! Use your imagination.

For example…

Your Moogle is so bossy and he complains too much about you keeping too many junks in your Mog Safe. You two often argue, you insist that keeping junks is the key to wealth, because all junks might come in handy some day. He keeps yelling at you that the Mog Safe is so going to explode if you don’t stop  stuffing garbage in it and threatens to throw you out, along with your junks.

What to do?

1. Move out.
2. Let him throw your stuff away.
3. Burn all the junks.
4. Burn the Moogle.
5. Burn the junks and the Moogle together.
6. Exploit the situation and make money out of it.
7. Sip tea and enjoy the campfire.

3, 4, 5, 6, and 7 seem to be the correct answers for me.

Dig out your junks, look at what you can do wit them. Synthesis, yes. Most junks can be used as synthesis materials. So, make use of them to skill up your crafts. Aim correctly, and use your crystal, preferably Fire Crystals….and burn away your little white devil with flapping wings.

Aim for his butt, or his head, doesn’t matter. And light him on FIRE!

Ah, well, more seriously, messy Mog House can be a big hassle, especially when you’re changing from jobs to jobs or leveling up lowbies or mid-level jobs. Not only that you’ll need a lot of free space to switch equipment around, but after you’re done with party session, junks accumulate themselves if you don’t have a good measure to manage them. It will, if you don’t do anything about it, soon become a serious problem, Inventory Crisis!

The best way is if you have time during party sessions or at the end of the day, try to sell them on the AH, or NPC, or if you have the craft skill that it takes, craft them into something that’s more profitable or space-effective.

So I pulled out my Earth Crystals, Sulfur, and Bomb Ash, sent them to Aikanana who has high level Alchemy, asked him to make Firesand for me. The I dug out my Silver Ingots (accumulated since long ago as well as made from Goldsmith session with Aurrek a few days ago), and Fire Crystals, then used them with Firesand to make Silver Bullets. From skill lv 20 to 23, it took about 3 stacks of Fire Crystals, netting me 11 stacks of Silver Bullets.

Then I bagged all my bullets, saving up more space in my pocket.

A few junks are now out of the way, and now I’m just 1 more skill level to go until capping with this recipe.

I don’t even care when I break crystals or ingredients, heck it feels good, especially when level gap is small and I often get skillups from breaking.

So, if you feel bored, and really run out of idea about what to do in the game, don’t just sit there and stare blankly at your monitor, your Moogle, or your own character, no mushroom would grow on those even if you glare harder. Tidy up your Mog Safe, Mog Locker, and Storage. Even if you’re not bored, but just want to break something, smash something, or burn something, you can also use those destructive desire to drive your craft skill as well as your Mog House clealiness.

Break, smash, destroy, burn!!! Be destructive productive.

You might even be able to create a menu called “Blackened Moogle.”

Have fun!

Just don’t burn down your Noble Bed, or you sleep on the floor tonight.

Again, this year the Sadistic Statistic Moogle (or according to Cornie, the GoogleMoogle) is back!

He’s the Moogle that keeps track of everyone’s statistics, the data such as Chat Frequency, NPC conversations, numbers of your battles, battles won, parties or alliances joined, as well as how many enemies you have defeated (which I believe only counting the finishing blows.)

So here’s mine! As of 14 May 2010.

Chat Frequency:  509588
NPC Conversation:  65528
Parties joined:   2966
Alliances joined:   443
Battles fought:  72016
Deaths:  868
Enemies defeated:   41390
GM calls made:  9

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Let’s compare it to last year, May 2009.

So, within 1 year time, here’s the change.
Chat Frequency:  +200324
NPC Conversation:  +21542
Parties joined:   +1018
Alliances joined:   +294
Battles fought:  +16492
Deaths:  +232
Enemies defeated:   +7296
GM calls made:  +5
Comparing to people whom I’ve talked to, for example, Cornie and Aurrek, I have died very few times! Prove me the master of escaping!! Woot!

Ah, and my total playtime from /playlog command reads:
375 days and 6 hours, approximated.

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By the way, Corn’s total stats (as of 12th May 2010) are;

Chat Frequency:  637357 (There, more than me, phew! Haha!)
NPC Conversation: 43081 (A lot! But mine’s still more, me lonely? Had to befriend NPCs!)
Parties joined:   2353 (A bit less then me? I don’t expect me to win like this O_o)
Alliances joined: 484 (We’re close!)
Battles fought: 53299 (Impossible >.> Corn, you are the slaughterhouse beast, why I fought more than you!?)
Deaths:  1398 (500+ more than me, wheeee!!)
Enemies defeated: 32873 (Right, because you usually are busy tanking for me when I kick stuff)
GM calls made: 7 (Way to go, hun)

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And Aurrek’s (12th May 2010):

Chat Frequency:  299591 (Hmmm how curious, not as high as I would expect)
NPC Conversation: 74498 (Gosh, you love those NPCs so much, Aurrek)
Parties joined:   2615 (Our stats is kind of close in this department)
Alliances joined: 548 (A bit more than me and Corn, you’re the big event guy, yeah!)
Battles fought: 94468 (Look whose number went skyrocket O_o OMG are you kidding me!?)
Deaths: 41xx (I zoned, but still this is A LOT!!! You master of death!)
Enemies defeated: 33202 (Close to Corn’s, a bit more)
GM calls made: Didn’t mention.

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And Arkades’ (15th May 2010)

Chat Frequency:  297563 (Average, is it?)
NPC Conversation: 74917 (You talked to NPCs even more than Aurrek did….wow)
Parties joined:   2949 (Almost draw with me on this one)
Alliances joined: 547 (Almost match Aurrek’s lol)
Battles fought: 117893 (Whoa, dude, we’re talking about 100k battles? OMG You maniac!)
Deaths:  2668 (Are you serious? Dying 2600 times out of 2900 parties joined? That’s a true PLD)
Enemies defeated: 45348 (Ark is a killer!)
GM calls made: Didn’t mention

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Fun XD

I’m looking for more people to compare stats with.  :3